We went to see Born To Be Wild at the IMAX yesterday. I have a huge amount of respect for the two beautiful women of the story that have spent their lives rescuing and protecting wildlife of the world, and a huge amount of jealousy! They spend their days loving these animals and changing the world. Their lives are so extraordinary (and this is not to say that I don’t love the life that I have but) my life seems so ordinary in comparison. I would like to be able to say at the end of my days that I did mostly everything that I wanted to do with my life.

There is that saying, "be the change that you want to see in the world", so I ask this...where do I start? Is it responsible of me to pack my children up and take them to a struggling country? Is it okay for me to want that? Both of the women in this story have had children and have raised them successfully in those situations.  And an even better question is do I want to change the whole world or just mine? Paul and I talk often about moving, I cannot stand the thought that I may die being born and raised and lived in only one place in this HUGE world. If I want to live other places it is my responsibility to move on, it is not as if a twister is going to come and transplant me there.

And where does our adoption fit in? Well, we certainly are not going anywhere any time soon. There is just so much that I want for my life, for my boys lives and there doesnt seem to be a way to get it all done...for now...