The government of Alberta, children's services has been highly criticized in the past for having photos and information about adoptable children on the Internet. http://www.child.alberta.ca. I however have always been a supporter of this practice. Prior to choosing to adopt I always thought that it was better to promote these children rather than them being unknown, just a number of the system. Sure, I understand why people feel that it may be exploiting and harmful but the motives behind it always seemed honest and sincere, to benefit the children and ultimately place these children in forever homes.

As you may know, Paul and I have chosen to adopt through the government of Alberta. During our first meeting with our adoption worker we were told that the children on the website were not going to be available to us, that there needs are too severe for us to be matched with. In fact we were told that these children are so severe that they have been matched against every adoptive family in Alberta with no success.  At first, I convinced myself to stop looking at the children available on the site, telling myself that they are not for us but after only a short time I gave into curiosity and went online. Most of the children that have been on there forever are still there, although there were two new little ones and I have been trying hard not to fall in love. After reading their bio I promptly sent our adoption worker an email for more information and am waiting on pins and needles for a reply. Who is she to say that these children are too severe for us, I would really like to be given the opportunity to decide myself. I would like to be given the opportunity to know more about them. I know that it is her difficult job to match families with children, goodness knows she is under a great amount of stress to make the right matches, but I am not sure that these two are not for us. I hope that I am not grasping at straws just hoping for a match sooner than later but I really don't think that is what is happening here. Of course, I am wanting to look at their bio now all of the time and it is slightly frustrating that Paul is not feeling the same level of excitement or interest. He would rather play it safe, not want to get interested if they are not available to us. Oh how different he and I are.

This whole process is trying to force me to learn patience. I am not sure the process is winning...