Not such a good day...

I don't know if it is just that I am tired or perhaps it is PMS but today is not such a good day. I cannot seem to gel with Brandy today, her and I are no where near on the same page. Thursday is music day and like the last few Thursday's Brandy and I went excited for our music class. It was mostly good until about half way through when Brandy decided that she wanted to sit with anyone but me, in fact she was giving me a nasty look and then going to sit with other people, so much so that my friend Heather asked what I had done to piss Brandy off this morning! I know that she is two and I am thirty-something but really it is hard to not take it personally. It leaves me feeling rather disheartened. Then we went to Sobeys and there she whined most of the time and for what I have no idea, then again to take out her frustration she hit me. By the time we got home it was all I could do to get her lunch and get her down for a nap....although she is not napping.

So far with this adoption, things have been great, really very easy but today...today is a bad day. Right now she is screaming 'no' in her crib. I knew at the beginning that there would be bad days and good days, I guess that I was just hoping that the bad days wouldn't be because I was feeling frustrated with her. I know that when the boys were two there were days that I didn't really like them all too much either but I don't really feel like I have the right to feel this way about her. After all isn't this what I asked for? I asked to have another child, for the good and the bad. When there are still people waiting for kids do I really have the right to be frustrated?

So, when I am ready and more calm, I will go into her room, pick her up, give her a snuggle and hopefully be able to turn it all around. Maybe she is feeling pretty crappy about the adoption today too.