I know that I have mentioned it before, when you are infertile, every pregnancy around you is just a little too hard to take. Three. Right now there are three people in my life that are pregnant. And yes I am incredibly happy for them, especially one of my friends who lost a baby last year, she is now expecting in November. However, thanks to the wonderful world of facebook on a daily basis I am faced with their prenatal joys. And oh how I want to feel differently, I want to be over the moon excited for them but I just cant. And that? leaves me feeling like one huge shit. I am so absorbed in my own life that I find it difficult to celebrate the joys of those around me. Sure I am happy for them when they buy new homes, get new jobs or go on vacation but my infertility has left me absolutely bitter. And the worst part is at this rate those pregnant around me will all have their children before we even get matched for our adoption. URG!
On a nicer note...Noah has had football camp this week. Between that and playing outside at recess and such he is getting his summer glow. This is something that I look forward to every year and it doesn't matter how much sun screen we put on him. My beautiful Noah, as he gets more brown his eyes get more blue. And right now his eyes are piercing, enough to melt my heart.
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