Happy Mother's Day

Today is Mother's Day and I woke to the sounds of my boys in the kitchen making me breakfast. Egg McMuffins and hash browns, OJ, and chocolate milk. Yum! I really am so very lucky to have the husband and sons that I do, they really love me so well. In fact Paul made ham and not bacon because he knows that I cannot stand the smell of cooking bacon, even though I am sure that he would rather have bacon.

Marcus made me the most beautiful wooden box and card for Mother's Day. And Noah made me a pastel and crayon picture of a sunflower with a really sweet poem on the back that says I am as pretty as a flower. Paul bought me a new Fuji Instax 210 camera. It is an instant film camera like the old Polaroids of the past. I love it! It takes really fun, little, artsy type photos. Truthfully I asked for it but he is the man for buying it for me. I had asked for a Dyson vacuum for Mother's Day but Paul refuses to buy me a vacuum as a gift, which is sweet. Although when a vacuum costs over $500, I would never buy it for myself, getting it as a gift stifles the guilt of such an expensive vacuum.

Anyway, so today is the day in which North America celebrates it's mothers. And being so I understand that today is also quite a painful day for some people. People who have lost mothers, people who are estranged from their mothers, people who want to be mothers and people who have lost their children; today can be a struggle. I myself, have been estranged from my mother for some time and today makes it more painful, knowing that she is thinking about me and I am thinking about her. None-the-less days like today do not erase all of the hurts in the world. But today, more than any other day I am thinking about those other women of the world who are plagued with infertility. Today is their day also, they may not have children but they are moms in their hearts. I feel your pain, your wanting and your hope. I understand the need to become a mother, to give that gift to a child as well to yourself. Today, I feel the same as you, wanting to have more children to spend my time with and give my love to. Happy Mother's Day to you.

I would also like to say Happy Mother's Day to my sister, who has been not like a mother to me but more like a companion. A thick-as-thieves partner. She too has lost our mother and together she and I have overcome. Amber (my sister) is a fabulous mother who teaches me so much. She also is the worlds best aunt who makes up for the lost love of a grandmother.

Happy Mother's Day to my mom (mother in law) Eva. She has been as much, if not more of a mother to me for the past seventeen years as my own mother. Eva has looked after me when I have been ill, she has cared for my children when I was gone, she has been there after the births of both my boys. Mom has been there for me whenever I have asked and she supports me greatly. Eva is a fabulous grandmother and we are all so grateful to have her!

Also, Happy Mother's day to my friends. Thank you to those of you that I can share my struggles with, who I laugh with and who teach me new things everyday. Thank you to my friends who laugh at my mistakes, don't judge and set me on the right path. I am truly thankful to be in it with you!